feeling!!

change is coming.. eagerly anticipating for it because it is good!
have never felt more sure about it but just standing upon the promises of God that He will enlarge my tents and prosper me.

because i'm loved by Him, all good things will come my way and i've to be prepared for it, ha!

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yeah!

in the midst

yesterday i went for the seminar on God's plan for pregnancy.

well, we're not planning for one now, maybe in a year or so.

i did'nt walked away feeling super recharged or having exciting revelations falling upon me, instead, i find the seminar quite boring.

pastor nerida walker shared on how her husband was sterile, and when they both refused to believe the doctor's report, she began to search the bible for answers.

and she went on to share on how she believed God for children, and now they have 4 healthy kids within 4 1/2 years!

God sure move fast for them, ha!

so why is it boring?

hmm, maybe i was expecting more?

i really don't know.

we know we will have kids, but practically speaking raising children in singapore is really expensive. so when she keep emphasizing to trust God for kids, i find myself thinking,

"yes! yes! but its very expensive you know?!"

and out of it, so subtly during the ending praise & worship,

He spoke right to my heart.

"I will provide. I will provide".

with these 3 words, a sure assurance is set right.

it is in the midst of our trouble, that i am more than a conqueror through Christ.

in the midst of trials and tribulations, He still loves me.

in the midst of my confusion, His word is a lamp upon my feet.

in the midst of my lack, He will provide.

faces

paul frank the monkey face

the-liverpool-lost-a-game face

we-are-in-love face

staying still face

you-can't-get-me! face

i-am-shy face

smiling-for-my-cousin face

concentrating-on-my-game face

goofy face

argh! face

? face

hmm face

to-scared-you face, ha!

ramblings of the confused mind

another rambling......

had few doubts about my current worklife..

not sure if i would want to continue or a change..

even felt empty and lost in the midst..

yet...

when i see the flowers just waiting, waiting for bloom time..

and i know...

they will always be my first love..

moments

today, i am in a complexed mood.

i've many thoughts running through my head right now and feeling very confused.

i find myself thinking on friendships.

do we have the choice of dropping friends like how we decide to be friends too?

as when friendships are no longer in place i.e no contact, no hanging out and no effort at all, does it means the friendship has died?

i don't understand this concept. so if there's no more word from each other, in context the friendship has indeed fizzled out.

but don't the years spent together laughing, talking, walking matters anymore?

perhaps.

i find myself reminiscing about the past.

and the present.

i thought i had let go, but apparently, i have not.

it could be i'm very sentimental about the past, thats why or it could be my strong desire to crave for a deeper relationship with friends.

i don't know.

all i know is that friends are made of precious moments.

the moments that are shared bonding over silly laughs, serious talks, heartaches and life.

the moments when you think of each other, you pick up the phone just to chat. the moments of comfort when you lose something, your shoulder is there for the tears. moments of secrets, of intimacy, moments of craziness and moments of countless words spoken over each other.

these are the friendship moments.

and yet

i think i want to move on now.

i think to let go, it is to be free from you. free to be me again.

though the memories will always be there,

i am going to find my own place.

just like how you'll always have a place in my heart.

listening

okayy.. i'm listening to jay's new album, capricorn.
like his previous albums, i like to give his album a few spins to let the songs grow on me..
and this time round, he did not disppoint me ;p

i prefer his quirky songs to his ballads..
though his ballads are always so achingly beautifully written.

i just hope he'll pass this phase of over-styling and just dress as his usual self..
its your songs that made you who you are, jay
ha!

johnny's birthday surprise!

yesterday we went to turf city's ah yat seafood restaurant!

to celebrate johnny's birthday, joy(his gf) had us all to be there to surprise him.

and to throw in a good dose of surprise, we went to the extent of hiding under the table just to burst out and sing a happy birthday song to johnny! haha!

it was really hilarious as the other patrons kept laughing at us and we were all cramped underneath the table. think gerry really had to strain his back as he was the tallest and biggest among us, hoot!

we ordered many, many sea creatures for our dinner! it was worth it as ah yat's seafood prices are only half price during weekdays!! and the food is really yummy and fresh.

really, really fresh.

we had giant oysters, clams, fish, crabs, duck, abalone mushrooms, fresh prawns, drunken prawns...

and everything was like enormous!!

before the surprise started, whilst waiting for j&j to arrive, it seems like no one wants to listen to sean, ha!

yimei is not listening

neither is gerry



hmm, i think i listen to shijie better, lol!
(its all my imagination only! sean, we do listen to you ah!)

and then the hiding starts...

happy hidout




still not here..



ooh.. here they come!!


and....... surprise!!!








his shocked and 'are these really my friends?' expression and happy smile!!

so after all the bursting and singing, off we go to picked our dinner!
so, so hungry man!






at the unqiue seafood market

our clams...

and ladies & gentlemen, i present to you...

qx weird creatures

yet very tasty for our dinner plates

we have:

kermit made an apperance too,

but we let him go.. for now, ha!

eels aka yewwwwwww

they don't bite, seriously..

meet lobercrab!!

a mutant of lobster and crab, he is your neighbourhood best choice for dinner, haha!

and these must be a confused fish.

it swims on its side but the eyes and mouth are all at the top of its side!

the giant lobster, grandfather to lobercrab..


and now, i present to you our sumptious dinner!!

going

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going

going


going

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gone!!


this looks like start of dinner, but actually we're all very filled and satisfied, ;p

oh! i must recommend my favourite dish of the day!!

its this fried minced duck with beans wrapped with lettuce thats so very delicious!!

the lettuce is so fresh and crispy and paired with the savoury minced duck, the taste is just so heavenly!! i had many helpings of it, lol!!

the dinner was really worth it!

and so the day being halloween, we head off to dempsey after our dinner to get in to the spirit of halloween too..

we went to ben's & jerry's wanting to chill, but an awful band was playing there, haha!!

so we walked a little further before we went to a wine place to sit and enjoy......

to enjoy the aircon!! hahahahaha...

well, we did order a bottle of wine to go with the aircon, ha!

it was really fun just to sit and have dinner with friends.

to laugh, joke and tease along with everyone..

i hope johnny will enjoy his today too!!

(today is his actual birthday)

(^_^)