bleah, just to write something but keep deleting it away, heh.. 1 month and just this sentence, ha!

overdrive

my maternal instincts is in overdrive right now. any pictures of cute toddlers, babies, shoes, booties, clothes will make me go, 'awwww so cute!!'

all these things made me wanna have my kid right now man. and i actually asked my husband if we can have a kid right now and he looked at me in a funny way. ah well!!

sleep sleep

this morning on the bus, i got a brainwave of a beautiful story. it reminded me not to look for the spectacular to find my happiness, but rather its the daily mundane everyday live that holds the beauty.

i hope i can still remember the story and write it down soon.
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ok now my mind is blocked and feeling tired these few days. have to sleep!!

grace and love

we are both tired. i crash out on the sofa straight after reaching home and he crashed out after his shower. but now i'm awake and blogging, ha!

he's still asleep though we will be catching the man u-everton match in another 15 mins time. i like to watch him sleep. he looks so adorable and i just want to cuddle him over and over again. is this too personal? i think its alright. if i'm not able to pen it down here, then what good are all the words for? hmm...

he has taught me many things and there are even more for me to catch from him. the wisdom and the journey he has with God is so tangible. i like reading the bible to him. i like when he plays the guitar. i feel refreshed when he washes me with his words. most of all, i like that he loves me with his little gesture, his hugs, little surprises, all the little efforts he put in just to make me happy.

i don't deserve any of it yet i have his love. indeed it's truly by the grace of God that brought us together. for it is grace and love that will see us through.

off tangent

making plans makes the future exciting as it gives us something to look forward to. i'm looking forward to our trips!
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i wanna get an mp3 too. and after seeing my sister's shiny red ipod mini, i'm so wanting to get it too! just so i can listen to songs and sermons. very important you know? sheesh.. and also good to fall asleep to it, ha!

i'm really enjoying my study course now because:
- we get 2 tea breaks
- 2 hour lunch breaks
- finish class early

what more can we ask for?! its like holiday for us man. and my class people are all so funny. we talk about the lamest and weird stuff. its like back in poly days where we listen to lectures and ask funny questions to the trainers, lol!

my dad just called to ask if i'm still at sbg. he wanted to pick me up from work!! i have the sweetest father, heh.

and its normal if i get off tangent to blog about other irrelevant stuff. my mind is erm, stringy! like noodles!! haha!!!

anyways the weekend is here, enjoy while it lasts!!

updates

she's with me and doing fine. i'm happy to have her, for as long as she wants.
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i've deleted the few previous posts due to the sensitive nature and well, anyway its family matters. all is well and whatever that has to be done will be done and whatever words that should be said has been said. this is now the healing process. and it shall be well and whole.
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i've mentioned that i'm currently on a 1 month course right? and i'm enjoying it very much!! it feels so relaxing and carefree as i don't have to go back to office, ha! so far, the lessons are easy to understand and i've make many friends too. its just nice to mingle with different people and get to know them. their different work scope, their backgrounds and just geniuinely be friends with them.

and there's this nparks night for all the staff to attend on the 13th feb. its like a major gathering of dinner where there's dancing, food, games, lucky draw and friendly competition between the departments. and of all the competitions we had to do, my department is doing dancing!! and i think i have psycho-motor skills problem man! everytime my hands move, my legs don't move and when i want to move my legs, my hand don't move. i know i'll be making a fool of myself but at least i have many others with me, haha!!

awaiting another friend of mine to come aboard soon!!

what i'm doing now

with john's family

i'm stuffed from the reunion dinner! and its drizzling now, yipee!! hopefully it will rain tomorrow and the next. whats cny without all the rain eh?

did'nt get any new clothes for this year though, hmm just have to make do with it and come up with new ways to re-wear my other clothes heh. my husband is playing football with his friends now. and i'm enjoying this quietness alone at home. wanted to upload a bit more photos but its taking a long time and only managed to upload this 1 picture.

another pile of clothes to fold. at least the toilets and house have been cleaned. now i fully appreciate the importance of weekends, ha!

just lazing a bit more before turning in. i want to feel the cool breeze and hear the pattering sound of rain drops on my window.

alright, goodnight!

happy 'niu' year!!