"God is my refuge and strength, a VERY PRESENT help in trouble.
Therefore I will not fear"
God is my VERY PRESENT help in my lack, my VERY PRESENT help in wisdom,
my VERY PRESENT help in debt, my VERY PRESENT help in handling situations
which i cannot control.
was feeling moody and took out the bible to read. and while reading through Deu 28 and pronouncing the blessings over myself and my family, i could not help but started crying. there's just this overwhelming something that came over me. as i was blessing myself, i was also thinking of the past few months of lack and struggles as the wei has to start a new job and also pay off whatever bills we had for the new house.
it was a huge burden that he has to carry it himself and i could not do anything about it.
i felt little, fearful and anxious.
yes, though i may appear indifferent and aloof, but it does'nt mean i do not care.
only God knows how much i want it to succeed. the results may not be encouraging, the fruits are slow and giving it up may seems like a threat, but perhaps, just perhaps, its true?
i want to share this burden with you, really i do. and its time i have to put us first. it is no longer myself anymore.
so Lord, when the time comes for me to let go, you prepare the table before me. and i will let it go and be still, and know that You are God.